Photography – Timothy Peacock
I cannot believe how fast this year has gone. August already?
I seem to say this every year but honestly – time is just flying by!
Reflection is something we usually do at the end of each year, looking back on what we’ve learnt and how we’ve grown and start to work out want we want to do, change, see and be for the year ahead. But for me recently, I’ve had such big changes going on in my life that it seems like a great time to just sit back and reflect.
This year so far has been a complete roller-coaster and the ride seems to still be going, full force. I’ve made some big decisions and have began to really get to know myself. 2015 was a rocky one for me and although 2016 has been a lot better, something still isn’t quite right, I’m not sure what it is and I’m not sure when I’ll figure it out, but it’s definitely given me a reason to look at myself and my life and to start making changes.
I’ve recently realised, somewhat foolishly that no matter what changes I make in the outside world, they will make no difference to my overall happiness unless I’m happy myself, on my own, as I am. I’ve learnt to never put your happiness on hold for anyone else and never EVER change who you are just to please others. You can’t please everyone and thats ok, your true friends will love you just the way you are, so screw the rest!
Besides all of that I’ve realised that my happiness and my life in general – whatever change I decide to make, it’ all in my hands. I can decide to do, go and be – whatever, wherever and whomever I want.
As you can probably tell by this slightly unfocused post, I’m in a weird stage of my life right now and I’m hoping that in time everything will come together nicely and I’ll be truly happy, but for now I’m going to continue trying different things and seeing what course I want my life to take.
Life is hard. It’s supposed to be. If we didn’t suffer, we’d never learn anything.